Determination

Going through this day, is causing me pain.
Knowing that if I do nothing, there will be no gain.
I want to push myself, and give it my all.
I want to show myself, that I won't stop and fall.
I want to try my best, for once in my life,
pushing myself past the limit, so there won't be strife.
I need to control my feelings, and make them my own.
I need to understand how, where, and why they should be shown.
This is a big goal, that I have never told myself before,
I have been drifting like a lazy man at sea, but now that I am washed ashore,
I have to learn how to walk again, I've got to give in more.
I have to learn wrong from right, there is nothing to lose.
these are life-changing decisions, so I am going to begin to choose.
Even though I do not want to walk through my life alone,
in my heart, and in my soul, I will never let it be shown.
I know for sure, that family and friends are here,
I know that where ever I go in life, they will still be there.
I have to start to realize, I have to start to care.
I have to tell myself over again, that there is nothing to fear.
Even though life gives us many difficulties, some that we will have to face ourselves.
I have to stand tall and look past it all, have courage in myself.
I can't give up when times are bad, and give my life away.
Because who knows? Tomorrow may be a better, brighter day.

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~I wrote this poem a while back, like a few months or something . . . I still
think this way, feel this way. Or so I seem to believe.~